Better This Way

I'm thinking, is it better this way?

Someone told me earlier: "Maybe it's better this way" I shrugged and answered: "Maybe" or is it? Is it really better this way?

I'm thinking of ending it. Just like what happened with my "Mom" and my "Pseudo-Dad"

No more expectations, no more pain; just "friends" no more, no less. Maybe I'm expecting too much from you. Maybe we're not really meant for each other. Was it the age gap? Was I too lax? Were you too confident? Tell me... Shall we end this now?

I'm thinking of just moving on and forgetting us

Is it worth fighting for? Is this even real? Will you hold my hand when we grow old? My wing, to fly me through all these pain? Questions that will never be answered 'til we cross the bridge...

What are you thinking? As you sit there smiling, eating, working. Is it better this way?

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